On automatic pilot

Acquaintances, and online friends ask me the question, how have you gotten through the 23 years, since Len had the 2 massive heart attacks, and quintuple by pass surgery.  His daughter tells me all the time, that she would have lost her Dad then, if I hadn’t been here to take care of him.

I have 2 answers to this question.  First off, I go on automatic pilot, because of dealing with the various situations over the years.  I know the signs of a heart attack, a sugar low, blood pressure low, and a stroke, all of which he has had.  I also know when his arteries are getting blocked.  His heart won’t take anymore surgeries, so he has a pacemaker/defibrillator.

The second is my faith.  As Len has had more health issues, now with his kidney failure, I ask the Lord for strength every morning, and night.  I often ask during the day too.  Having this growing faith, has allowed me to do many things, that I would have thought impossible.

Yes,  so it’s autopilot for me.  What about you?



  1. I can see where you must remain vigilant to warning signs, but go on autopilot so you’re not psychically drained from the constant stress. I admire you for that. You’re stronger than I could be….

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  2. For me, it’s a semi-detachment from temporal reality and an embrace of the eternal which is the hidden aspect of our daily lives. My father, whom I’ve cared for over 14 years, is also very fragile and wheel chair confined from strokes, heart attacks and now, terminal lung cancer. I find that ‘reframing’ my perspective with Holy Spirit guidance is the biggest gift I can give to myself and my family.

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  3. Faith ,which to me brings with it the ability to “turn it over to the higher power”, is a wonderful way to carry on living in the midst of stressful events. You have come through a lot and you are right to “turn over ” and let your faith carry you through. All the best to you and to your husband.

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  4. This story sounds very familiar. My father had more than 20 heart attacks from his age of 21 to his death at 57 of lung/throat cancer. He had two bipass surgeries, pace maker, and defibrillator. My first memories of him are sitting outside his hospital room, quietly, as that was expected of children then. All my life he came home from the hospital, I always expected he would, until that last time when he didn’t.
    My mother did a fabulous job caring for him through everything he went through over the course of their lifetime. He’s been gone 25 years and she would love to still care for him so she’d still have him in her life.

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