Woke up feeling more myself today.

I talk to Len when I am at the house, and also talk out loud when I am doing something, or what I need to do. I don’t know if this is common when you loose a spouse, but it breaks up the silence.

There was never silence in the house, because Len always had the television on. Most of the time he was sleeping, but he was with me. I am not a television person, apart from 30 minutes news a day, and my English soaps. I have had Pandora, and Prime Music on a couple of times.

Last night in bed, I said my prayers, and had a long talk to Len, and the Lord, and I feel much better today. I know everyone is saying baby steps, but for this lady that did everything for 40+ years, it’s hard if I have things to do, to put them to the side.

Off to Body Combat now.

12 comments

  1. It must be difficult on so many different levels. I think that we have no choice but to take things one day at a time. I’m sure that Len is smiling down on you each and every day.

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  2. When my mom lost her second husband, my step-dad, she used to talk to him all the time. She eventually got a dog and she’d chat with “Maggie” all the time. So, I don’t think that there is anything out of the ordinary to talk to a loved one who is no longer present physically. Do what you must to work through your grief. XO!

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  3. It is hard to realize that you are alone, really alone for the first time in 40 years. My hardest times are the evening when there was always Hap around. It jus feels so odd. I talk to the dogs and that helps some but it would be nice to have someone answer.

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  4. Take care, and talk to wordpress friends more often. I know it cannot fill the void, still it ll bring you peace. Lots of love and hugs for you..

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