I have passed the time that I burst into tears when I think, or talk about Len. Everyone told me there is no timeframe, and everyone is different.
It took me 4 months, to put my burden onto the Hospice counselor, and another 2 weeks for her to tell me that I can now grieve, and I have accepted that. Yes, the tears will run down my face, but I can deal with it, because at last I have realized that he wanted me to be happy, and have a life without him.
Writing this the tears are coming down my face, but they are not sad ones, they are natural, and I cry without pain.
Today after the 2 board meetings, I got to Facetime with my eldest granddaughter in England for almost an hour. I am so thankful for my family over the pond. I miss them, but it was so good to see her smiling face, and I told her that grandma is fine. She has started her new life.
The featured photo is of my lunch/dinner that I ate between 3 and 4 while doing Facetime with her. I added lots of extra seedless grapes, and strawberries to it.