It is almost 6 months since Len passed away, and it feels like yesterday, in many ways.
The first 4 months felt like hell for me. I cried every day, and looked at the door for Len to walk in. When I woke up I would look at his side of the bed, only to find it empty. If I had seen someone, or had news, I would come into the house ready to share it with him.
In the past 2 months, I now realize I am on my own, and I accept it. I know the reason why, as Len’s body physically gave out, and his mind was going too. The Lord took him, because he was in pain, and I was too. I couldn’t bear to see him like that. It wasn’t my Len.
I have good friends, the gym, the Eagles, my timeshare on the beach, and WordPress with all my friends here. I will live a blessed life, and can do this as I have accepted my lot.
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Wow, So sorry to hear. Condolences to you and the family.
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I’m so glad things are getting better for you.
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You still have much to be grateful for and Len would want you to enjoy yourself
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🌹❤✒
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Oh thats a lovely picture of Len…
you’re right, you must move on Susie and from reading your posts all the time I think you’ve been doing quite well, a bit of sadness will always linger but thats okay… keep sharing, you’ve got WordPress friends from all over the world here with you…
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Thinking of you.
Sending love and hugs and strength.
x
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I totally understand. John has been gone for 15 years and sometimes, it still feels like yesterday. You will always love him and cherish the time you got to spend together. I’m sure he is glad you are taking care of yourself, making new friends, and having fun. Just remember, it is normal to have down days. Don’t beat yourself up when those come. And, it can be the silliest things that trigger it…I remember one for me was seeing two snow shovels in the garage. It’s hard. Sounds like you are doing great.
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Prayers are with you and there is no set limits on mourning at all,respect and peace
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👍🌞
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Hard to believe those six months have gone by so quickly, I’m glad you’re feeling better.
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I have a choice to be positive or not. So happiness is what he would have wanted 😊
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Thank you. I do know Len would want me to have a good life 💔
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I am a social person and love helping people, so that helps.
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All are really appreciated. Thank you 😊
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And I love and appreciate you all 🤗
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I realize that, and know that I am blessed 😊
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Doing the best I can 😊
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6 months, I still can’t believe it is that long. Thank you.
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Yes it does.
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You have made the right choice.
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😊
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Amen. God continues to light your daily path brighter and brighter.
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Sending hugs and peace your way. I know this must be hard. I hope your memories of him sustain you. I wish there were more I could say, but sadly words fail me just now. Know that you’re in my thoughts.
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So sorry to hear this Susie, I’m glad you are feeling a little better, feeling a little space around your grief. Very warm wishes from me.
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Very much appreciated
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That really helps. Thank you 😊
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For sure 😊
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