I hate to do it, but I had to go back to a whole pill last night for anxiety. Yesterday was a day that I don’t want to encounter again. I still woke up at 4 a.m. and couldn’t go back to sleep. I had the premonition that Saturday through Monday would be like this. However, I wasn’t going to give into not coming down to the beach until Tuesday. I got through Len’s birthday, and talking to so many friends that have this same week as we have, 20+ years or so. They all asked me what the cause was, and I spent the late afternoon, and early evening just going back through the last 2 weeks of his life.
I know that I will meet more, and they will probably mention him in today’s service, so you can see how I am feeling. I am promising myself that I will be out of this being in a miserable mood, after our anniversary. Roll on Tuesday.
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Praying for you during this time Susie! I know a little of how difficult it can be. God bless!🙂😺🌞
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Another miserable day. I think if my girlfriend wasn’t planning on coming down on Tuesday I would have gone home
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Stay strong Susie – You can do it!
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Be patient with yourself. My mother still deals with her own trauma. Some days are better for her than others. She has made so much progress.
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This is by far the hardest time, as we have spent the last 25 years being in this apartment together
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I understand. You and my mother are making a similar journey. Grace and peace to you Susie.
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Gladly accepted for both of us
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