Trying to get motivated to go to church this morning.

I hate to do it, but I had to go back to a whole pill last night for anxiety. Yesterday was a day that I don’t want to encounter again. I still woke up at 4 a.m. and couldn’t go back to sleep. I had the premonition that Saturday through Monday would be like this. However, I wasn’t going to give into not coming down to the beach until Tuesday. I got through Len’s birthday, and talking to so many friends that have this same week as we have, 20+ years or so. They all asked me what the cause was, and I spent the late afternoon, and early evening just going back through the last 2 weeks of his life.

I know that I will meet more, and they will probably mention him in today’s service, so you can see how I am feeling. I am promising myself that I will be out of this being in a miserable mood, after our anniversary. Roll on Tuesday.

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