It’s over 7 months since Len passed away.

I can say that 90% of the time I am feeling good. Just the stupid little thing will remind me of my 43 years with Len. I do try and be positive about my memories, but on occasions I am sad, and miss telling him news, or the cuddles we had the last year of his life.

I know that I am doing really well, and better than most widows, as I did 100% of everything in our marriage. Len just enjoyed the television, being on his phone, and me cooking for him. He was totally spoiled, and in my future I want somehow to take care of me, or at least be able to do certain things.

I am not looking for marriage, but as Len wanted, I am hoping after a year, that I might find someone in my life that will be part of it. Positivity is my name.



  1. Thank you for sharing!!… you have memories in your heart and will never totally forget and you can talk to Len whenever you wish to… the love that you and Len shared will get you through the 10% of the time you may not be feeling the best… I am sure there is someone out there to perhaps share thoughts and some time with, the heart will know when and who…. 🙂

    Until we meet again..
    May your troubles be less
    Your blessings be more
    And nothing but happiness
    Come through your door
    (Irish Saying)

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  2. I was well prepared to be on my own because we knew what was going to happen and only our last 7 months involved me being a carer, so our experiences are very different. My husband was always good in minor medical dramas and enjoyed sharing cooking. I am sure he would have been a great support with me having surgery and chemotherapy, 24 hour wrap around care. Though all the family have been great they cannot be here all the time.

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  3. Forty three years, Susie! Wow, you both did so well.
    Here’s hoping that new relationship is out there looking for his next princess – with a view to spoiling her. You certainly deserve it.

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