I can say that 90% of the time I am feeling good. Just the stupid little thing will remind me of my 43 years with Len. I do try and be positive about my memories, but on occasions I am sad, and miss telling him news, or the cuddles we had the last year of his life.
I know that I am doing really well, and better than most widows, as I did 100% of everything in our marriage. Len just enjoyed the television, being on his phone, and me cooking for him. He was totally spoiled, and in my future I want somehow to take care of me, or at least be able to do certain things.
I am not looking for marriage, but as Len wanted, I am hoping after a year, that I might find someone in my life that will be part of it. Positivity is my name.