I think it is because of all the talk, posts, television etc., that I am now thinking of the holidays without Len. My low times are when I wake up, and he is not there.
I have also cut down my clonazepam by half, which was my regular dose prior to Len needing constant attention, and 2 weeks ago the mirtazapine which I was prescribed 4 months before Len passed. I left a month between cutting them in half.
I had been sleeping great, when going to bed at midnight, with the whole mirtazapine, and now it’s hit or miss as to when I fall asleep.
So I know that doing this is part of the way I am feeling. Once I shower, and put my gym clothes on, I feel so much better.
I can understand now why a woman will stay with a man for companionship. After 43 years of having someone in the house, it is really hard not to turn over in bed, and see someone laying next to you.