I saw the same counselor that came around the end of July. She is from east Pasco County, as they have been without a counselor for west Pasco most of the year. She is very professional, most important listens, and is caring.
Even though the tears were flowing on, and off for the hour, she kept reassuring me that I am doing better than most people in my situation. I have to expect the bumps in the road to recovery, and the week of Len’s birthday, and our wedding anniversary was the trigger. Since then, I have had good and bad days. Lately more bad days.
She is pleased that I joined a ‘dating app’ just for companionship and have put the word out locally on ‘Neighbor’ about a senior lunch at a restaurant once a month. This is for the 4 towns that almost run into each other. I will see if I get any takers on that one.
I couldn’t believe with the app, that they want $34 a month to show me the so called 12 men that are interested in me. The only time it is free, is if 2 people click the like each other icon. I am not raising my hopes on that one.
The hundreds of couples that Len and I had as friends, just wave, or say ‘Hi’ to me now. It’s as if I am a different person, so new acquaintances have to be made.
I am to phone her early January as she knows how hard Christmas and the New Year will be. Len often slept on the loveseat recliners all evening, but just before midnight I would wake him up, toast the New Year, kiss and cuddle. So, it’s not ‘not going out’, it’s just being alone.